Tall, smart looking, well-built, and he also had that look that made him stand

taller than the rest. He would always occupy that same seat every Sunday, not minding anybody or anything. From the stage, i had never seen his hands raised while singing, or maybe I was just too busy worshiping. But he would just close his eyes with both hands locked at his back, and appear to be enjoying worship. Then down there, I would sometimes look his way and he’s just there with his notebook, taking down notes of what the preacher says. He wouldn’t talk to anybody because he had nobody with him – not a guy, not a girl. But I think he did laugh sometimes, I’m not so sure.

 

And I also don’t think I had ever seen him anywhere else but on that seat. “Who is he?” I would sometimes ask myself, but I knew better than to care much. I had enough people to worry about and they’re enough trouble for me. He was just that guy on the fourth row every 5pm service and I had my own beautiful life, or so I thought it was.

 

That time, I wanted to explore new things and meet new people, and sports was the perfect avenue. It was in one of those sports meetings that we were finally introduced. In my mind I said “Ah okay, so that’s his name” and on with my life I went. But that introduction was followed with other things and taaaaalking on the phone was one of them. That guy can talk. And in his talking I got to know a man worth more than a first impression.

 

He is no longer just a guy on the fourth row. He now has a name, dreams, ideas, plans, personality, and humor that I enjoy. A friend I can count on and look forward talking to. Someone that makes me appreciate the beauty of life more. Somebody I’m gonna meet later to test if everything he says about exercise really works…

Apat kaming magkakapatid. Si ena, weng, don at sha (bunso to panganay). Lahat kami ipinanganak at lumaking mga pinoy. Lahat kami nagpapasalamat na Pilipino ang lahi namin. alam niyo kung bakit?

Kasi kung intsik kami, ganyan mga itsura namin. Okay lang naman sana, pero parang hindi namin bagay eh. Tapos hindi pa pantay ang skin color. panget yun. Nako lalo na kung naging egoy kami...

Di ba? Hindi talga bagay! parang pang missing link. Ehehe Buti nalang Pilipino kami...

Kahit di kami maputi, hindi rin naman kami ganun kaitim. Hindi man matangos ang ilong, atleast magaganda at mga pogi kami.

Kung naging Amerikano kami? Wag na nating pag-usapan. denied ang US visa application ko. so ayaw naming maging amerikano!!!! che! (hahaha may bitterness)

Isa lang masasabi ko. "Pilipino, Pilipino, Pilipino ang lahi ko!"

*Nothing against other races. It's just that hindi talaga namin bagay magkakapatid ang ipanganak na ibang nationality. I have all respects for the Chinese and the Blacks. No offense meant sa kanila. I'm for world peace you know?

 

All in one year

Bolinao-Baguio trip with karen, carmela, dwyght, Giselle.

Henry and Rache's wedding

Zero or Max Campaign.

Pastor LA Mumar and his team moved to QC.

Appreciation Night in Pioneer.

Back to school.

Sky and Fem's wedding

3PM Taglish Service was launched.

Leaders Convergence started to transition to Big Groups.

More campus ministers added.

Ate Aubrey gave birth to Kaela.

I got hired to relieve ate Jo while she was on her maternity leave.

Pastor Manny Carlos was released from QC.

Ate Jo gave birth to Gabbie.

Got reconciled w/ a friend.

Pastor Edgar became the Senior Pastor of QC.

James Sace became the new MD of the worship team.

Went on leave from worship team.

Lago de Oro wakeboarding with Champions.

1^st Worship Camp in Ciudad Christia.

Dianne moved to Ortigas.

Seneca flew to London.

Victory Weekend Campus and Adults.

Met RR. ahahaha!!! :-)

Lila, left to help out start Tacloban Church.

Ptr Edge moved to Fort, Ptr Manny’s back to QC.

Ate Jo went back to work.

Ely got married.

Awards Night/Christmas party held in CSWCD.

Carmela went home with me to Tuguegarao.

27th birthday.

Ptr. LA moved to Pioneer, King went too.

Prayer and Fasting.

Ang pagbabalik sa Worship team4.

Ptr Sky led 3pm Service.

Ptr Chris led 5pm Service.

Metro Manila Leaders Meeting in Ultra.

Tim moved to Pioneer for ministry.

Zambales/Anawangin trip.

One Life to Live Campaign.

Basic Mountaineering Course

Al came home from Taiwan.

Start of Big Group meetings.

Basic Skin Diving Course with roy.

Appreciation Night.

James left for Dubai.

Este moved to Pioneer.

First worship and prayer night.

One major depression for more than a month. :-(

Anawangin with Champions!

Swimming lessons.

1st mountain hiking at night.

Nugnug.

Karen went full time in QC.

Rache gave birth to Judah

Graduation of so many people.

Ballroom Dancing.

Jeng left for Singapore.

Finally got my passport.

Champions Ultimate.

Ena got engaged. Ahahaha, wish ko lang!

 

So many things happened this year.

I'm sure there's more to this list i did not include.

Longer will be the list of new people i have met.

 

 

Oo nga pala, May 1st is my spiritual birthday.

 

Thanks God, You've been there all the way. :-)

 

 

Pictures lifted from Ate rache's, este's, Zero or Max's, ate shawie’s, and karen's sites . thanks guys*

 

I have offered so many times to talk to you. This is not only because it’s the right thing to do but because I want to. Talking will settle all the misunderstandings between us. I wanna know what I did to make you resent me that much. I wanna know the real meaning of your defiant stares, those attempts to humiliate me in front of a crowd, those shunning away, and those refusal to be in the same group. I wanna say I’m sorry but I need to know what I have done and said that offended you, or as put in your words “that destroyed your life”. That's why we need to talk.

 

 

In my last attempt to settle and to clarify things, you said you already forgave me and you asked me to leave things as they are. And so I did. I have sacrificed the only friends I had just to give you your space. I denied myself of the love of a family, and of the hugs from friends I miss so much, just so I can leave you to heal. I thought this would make things better. I never thought “as they are” meant the resentment, the judging and the accusations would still continue. I have given you what I thought you needed. It hurts me to know you still haven’t healed despite the time and space. Perhaps my apology for specific things would help. Four years have passed and nothing has been settled between us, unfortunately things even got worse. That's why again, we need to talk.

 

 

Every time I’m reminded of you or when I hear things happening in your life, I’m left with nothing else but to pray for you. In as much as I wanna extend a hand to help, I can’t. I'm sure i'm the last person you would like to receive comfort and assurance from. Forgive me if this has become my assumption of you. Part of me wanna believe otherwise. In fact, there were plenty of times this past season when i wanted to approach you. My spirit was willing but my body hasn't gotten over the last time it tried to reach out and you refused.

 

 

I have stopped asking you this for fear of being rejected again. But as things are turning out, I know I have to ask you one more time…

 

Dear, can we talk?

”…leave your gift there in front of the altar. First go and be reconciled to your 'sister'; then come and offer your gift."

Matthew 5:24                        

 

 

 

 

I know there's only around 20% chance you'll read this. I'm taking it nonetheless

Karen, Carmela, She, and I went to Tagaytay to celebrate Carmela's birthday last Wednesdey. On our way there, we kind of talked about the different legends or "mga alamat" that we know. The only one i could remember then was the "Alamat ng Pinya". Mommy She on the other hand was the most knowledgeable of us four. She told the story about how the greedy fisherma's wife planted gold and how it grew to become ginger, "Ang Alamat ng Luya". I laughed so hard about how silly the story was, and at the same time i appreciated how creative Filipino storytellers were.

When we finally reached our destination, and while enjoying the scenery of the beautiful Taal Volcano (or crater?), all four of us came up with one of our own - "Ang Alamat ng Daing".

Noong unang panahon, may isang bangus na nagnganglang Ding. Sobra siyang gahaman sa pagpapa-"tan" ng kaliskis. Isang araw, nag sunbathing siya ng bonggang bonga. Nakita siya ng diwata at sabi niya, "Dahil sa gahaman ka, sige, mag sunbathing ka hanggang gusto mo. eto, mag lagay ka pa ng coke sa katawan para pantay ang tan mo". At ganun nga ang nagyari. Hindi lamang nag tanning lotion si Ding, naglagay pa siya ng coke sa katawan. Nagsunbathing siya at nagpagulong-gulong sa sand para pantay sa harap at likod. Nagpa-tan siya araw at gabi hanggang sa naramdaman niyang unti unti nang natutuyo ang kaliskis niya. Sinubukan niyang bumalik sa tubig ngunit huli na ang lahat. Wala na siyang ibang nasabi kundi ang "Help me, i think i'm da... i'm da... i'm daing..." The end.

Lesson: Wag mag sunbathing sa Tagaytay.

Please, walang kokontra. basta, yun na yun! ehehehe. next post will be the OST of the alamat.

Disclaimer: Ang nasabing alamat ay hindi tungkol kay Karen. Nagkataon lang na pareho silang mahilig magpa-tan.

In case you wanna read more of the real alamats. visit  http://www.geocities.com/bestbear_megson27/alamat.html 

Enjoy!

 

Ewan ko ba, bigla nalang ako na-senti kanina. I kinda miss so many people. Some of them i haven't seen for a hundred years, while others i see every so often but don't spend that much time with them anymore.

First, I miss my baby sis Dianne Rivas. She's now in Victory Ortigas and she's doing real great. She will forever be a baby sister to me. I miss how sweet she is. How she would call me and say she would like to just spend time with me. I always remember her whenever i drop by the Sunken Garden. It is our place of peace, the wo of us...

Now, if Dianne is my baby sis, Grace Mamaradlo is my ate. She's in London right now. I hope she'll come home to visit soon. Grace is that person i run to whenever i'm down and challenged. She encourages me like no other can. She's honest, gentle and very loving. I miss her especially her great big hug. love her so so so muchy!

Another ate i miss is Trisha tabangin. She's also in Victory Ortigas. she's that person i talk to about love life. ahahaha! well, not just mine but hers too. And she also keeps me focused on what God wants me to do. I can be very transparent with this woman without the fear of being judged. She's a darling. we get to talk atleast three times a year, catching up over coffee. And she was there on my birthday!! sweet...

Crisa Nagpala naman is like a mother. ewan ko kung bakit. Feeling ko kasi spoiled ako sa kanya, well atleast that's the memory i want to keep of her. haha! pwede ako pabuhat, pa-hug, at maglambing dito. She's one of the very few i allow to hug me while i'm asleep. no choice, mas malaki at mas malakas siya sakin eh. ehehe. oh yah, she's in china now.

Next are Armand Mulimbayan and Noel Revilleza. Yes, i see them every week or at least twice a month, but we don’t get to hang out that much anymore. These are the guys i feel so safe to be with. Yung tipong alam mong ipagtatanggol ako kahit bakla pa yan. ehehe Armand and Noel, ang mga lalake ng buhay ko. many people tease me to both of them but they will never know that just the thought of it makes me repent of incest. Platonic lang talaga. Eh may nagmamay-ari na kaya ng mga puso nila? love you guys! Me and my boys with Tim Cada, ang orig na tatlong itlog, soon will be going out para naman hindi na namin ma-miss ang isa’t isa. Just like the old days, right guys? See you three soon!

 

Oo na, in short i miss the kada. Well not just as a group but individually.

 

 

Tapos miss ko na rin si Rhema Corpuz, and Roy Aquino, my best friends in high school. Rhema is now in the Bahamas, trying to find a molato for me. yun kasi ang bilin ko sa kanya. She taught me how to appreciate people no matter how hard it is.ehehe Roy naman is my barubal friend. He is now hitting on my friend. hahaha, Pero kunwari yung friend ko ang gusto niyang makita, pero alam ko miss na miss na niya ako. ahahaha! dahil jan, kita-kits tayo BK Timog sa Sabado. Cheers dude! (Mukha lang silang couple dito pero hindi sila talo, sa totoo lang)

Well, Rhema and Roy aren’t the only ones i miss from high school. I miss the entire gang! the best people to drink with. eh pano, hinahayaan lang nila akong umubos ng pulutan kahit hindi umiinom. hahha!! Kampay! mabuhay ang mga ‘Just close friends’!

 

Quelly Abrera, Teresa Fuentes, and Benedict Villarosa. These were my officemates. Mga baliw, but very loyal friends. My Call Center days would have never beeen as fun without them. Tere is now married and pregnant, Qly is now very happy and content with Redd (hopefully getting married soon) and Ben now has STD. ahahaha, joke lang. bading parin.

 

Naomi Dosono, Evelyn Ballad. Mga kumare ko. pag nagsama na kaming tatlo, walang tatalo. natural na lumalabas ang kakulitan naming tatlo. May asawa na si Ebbe, si Mimi naman, nambabasted na ng mga lalake. ahahha!!! these are the women i started the faith with. With them i learned tough love and what secure friendship really means. For sure hindi sila mawawala sa kasal ko.

 

 

Eto, na-miss ko bigla, ewan ko ba. The “More To This” team. Shucks! biglang bumalik lang lahat ng memories ko with them. The night rehearsals, the Baguio adventures, the songs, the jokes, the kulitan. everything was so great. I miss how Joaquin handled the team.

 

 

Then, there's ate Angie. I remember in my most depressed days, she was the one i was hanging out with. We would go food tripping and watch movies. We have the same passion for the black people and their gift of singing. miss her. she's in Ortigas narin pala...

 

 

And yes, i miss Sha and Don who are now in the States. Miss ko na pati si Dani. Si Jeremy naman, gusto ko naring maikita. Haayyy... Hopefully i could get to visit them this summer. Lord, sana po, sana po...

 

The Bible talks about “a time to embrace and a time to refrain” (Ecclesiastes 3:5b). The days of embracing and keeping them near me have already passed. Now is the time to refrain and grow separately. But i still miss hanging out with them. I’m just grateful to have spent a portion of my life with these people. If any of the above people reads this, please know that i’m making myself available so i could spend time with you again. love you all!

 

*(some pictures were lifted out from grace's, noel's, angie's, dwyght's sites. thanks guys!)

 

 

 

Basta Christmas, sobrang lamig, sobrang daming pagkain. At siyempre maraming implications yan. Sana wag magbago tingin niyo sakin pag nabasa niyo to..

 

Sobrang lamig, lalo na sa Tuguegarao where i always spend my christmas kasi andun parents ko. And siyempre movie marathon ang family time namin after dinner. At habang komportable na lahat sa kanya-kanyang mga pweseto: sa sofa, rocking chair, hagdanan, stool, o sa sobrang lamig na floor (pwesto ko yun), may bigla nalang magre-request ng snack! siyempre ako ang bunso, ako ang usually inuutusan. Ayaw na ayaw ko to. Pano, bababa ako sa kusina, magbubukas ng ref na napakalamig, maglalabas ng juice o softdrinks na napakalamig, maglalabas ng salad na napakalamig, tapos maghuhugas ng kamay sa tubig na napakalamig. Iaakyat ko yung meryenda, tapos babalik sa dating pwesto ko, at dun ko lang finally mafi-feel ang pinaka-ayaw ko sa lahat: and inupuan kong pinainit ng aking tumbong ng ilang oras, ngayon napakalamig na!

 

After kumain ng midnight snack, bigla naman akong maiihi. ayaw na ayaw ko rin to. Pagpasok sa banyo, ito yung ilan sa mga times na iniisip ko mas okay maging lalake. ayaw na ayaw ko umupo sa ceramic chair na napakalamig!!! waaahhh!!!!

Tapos time to sleep na. ewan ko kung naexperience niyo na to. pero every christmas break na napakalamig, i try my best na isang position lang ako buong gabi. kasi changing positions means new surface to occupy. and new surface means, space na napakalamig!!! changing positions lang yan ah. pano pa pag naiihi ka sa gitna ng tulog mo’t kelangan magCR? naku po! double jeopardy!

Tapos pagkagising, talaga namang struggle ang bumangon, lalo na ang maligo! eh walang heater sa hi-tech na bahay namin. kung kailangan talagang maligo dahil may pupuntahan, sige magpainit ako ng tubig. pero kung maraming naka

pila sa banyo at lahat ay nagmamadali, hay nako idinadaan ko nalang sa matitinis at puro vibs na sigaw ang bawat buhos ko. pero kung manonood lang naman ako ng TV at kakain buong araw, eh di wag nalang maligo. tipid pa!

 

 

Speaking of kain buong araw, hay nako, i’m sure dito kayo makaka-relate. Ewan ko ba pero ganito ang utot ko every christmas. yung tipong hindi mo pa naamoy, alam mo nang deadly. kasi paglabas niya, parang siopao. mainit-init! at pag-inamoy mo, nakupo! deadly! Alle navakul nga illuk (like spoiled egg). Walang mintis. basta every Christmas vacation, yan talaga ang utot ko. Ang ilang mga kristiyano, minsan napapamura sa amoy. ahahahaha!!!!

 

Eto malupit. Kung mabaho utot ko, lalo na sa kuya ko. tatabi yan sakin tapos hahawakan ng mahigpt kamay ko sabay magpapasabog! waaaahhh!!! hindi ako makaalis pero tawa na ako ng tawa. hindi ko namalayan nalanghap ko na pala lahat ng kanyang ilinabas. mas matindi pa sa nerve gas!

 

Pag may bisita, kunwari alis muna ako papuntang banyo. discreetly i’ll expel my deadly gas. Rule: make sure pagpagin ang pwitan at magantay ng atleast one minute bago lumabas. dahil kung hinde, they’ll know you’re guilty.kasi kumakapit ang matinding amoy! kung kami-kaming pamilya naman, sige, pasabog lang ng pasabog kung sino man may gusto. minsan hindi mo na ma-distinguish ang utot ng isat isa...

 

Wag na maarte, I’m sure can relate kayo sa atleast one of these. okay lang yan atleast nag-e-enjoy tayo tuwing Christmas. ehehe Happy new year everyone!

 

 

here's for all who have been sharing their love stories with me.  i'm sure you can relate. the first time i read this (thanks for Miss San for sharing), i couldn't help but smile and agree with the author. But then again i said "Thank God I got away. God is trully sovereign" ahahhaa, read on guys!

 

In your life, you'll make note of a lot of people. Ones with whom you

shared something special, ones who will always

mean something. There's the one you first kissed, the one you first loved,

the one you put on a pedestal, the

one you're with...and the one that got away.

Who is the one that got away? I guess it's that person with who

everything was great, everything was perfect, but

the timing was just wrong. There was no fault in the person, there was no flaw in

the chemistry, but the cards just didn't fall the right way, I suppose.

I believe in the fact that ending up with someone, finding a longtime

partner that is, does not lie merely in the other

person. I can actually argue that an equal part, or maybe even the

greater part, has to do with the matter of timing.

It has to do with you being ready to settle down

and commit to someone in a way that goes beyond the little niceties of giddy romance.

How often have you gone through it without even realizing it? When you're

not ready to commit in that mature manner, it doesn't matter who you're

with, it just doesn't work. Small problems become big; inconsequentials

become dealbreakers simply because you're not ready and it shows.

It's not that you and the person you're with are no good; it's just that it's not

yet right, and little things become the flashpoint of that fact.

Then one day you're ready. You really are. And when this happens you'll

be ready to settle down with someone. He or she may not be the most perfect,

they might not be the brightest star of romance to ever have burned in

your life, but it'll work because you're ready. It'll

work because it's the right time and you'll make it work.

And it'll make sense, it really will.

So that day comes when you're finally making sense of things, and you

find yourself to be a different person. Things are

different, your approach is different, you finally understand who you are and

what you want, and you've become ready because the time has truly

arrived. And mind you, there's no

telling when this day will come. Hopefully you're

single but you could be in a long-term relationship, you could be married

with three kids, it doesn't matter.

All you know is that you've changed, and for some reason,

the one that got away, is the first person you think about. You'll think about them because you'll

wonder, "What if they were here today?" You'll wonder, "What if we were together

now, with me as I am and

not as I was?" That's what the one that got away is.

The biggest "What if?" you'll have in your life.

If you're married, you'll just have to accept the fact that the one that

got away, got away. Believe me, no matter how fairy tale you think your

marriage is, this can happen to the best of us.

But hopefully you're mature enough to realize that you're already with

the on e you're with and this is just another test of your commitment, one

which will just strengthen your

marriage when you get past it. Sure, you'll think

about him/her every so often, but it's alright.

It's never nice to live with a "might have been," but it happens.

Maybe the one that got away is the one who's h

already married. In which case it's the same thing. You just have to accept

and know that your memories of that person will probably bring a nice little

smile to your lips in the future when you're old and gray and reminiscing.

But if ever you do find him/her again, invite her/him out.

You might not get the chance to do it.. but would it be nice

to have an opportunity to say to that person - "Hey you, youre the One that almost got away".

Match Column A to Column B. Magaling kayo kung mahulaan niyo ang nagsabi sa item number 10...

Column A                                                                                                 Column B

1. "For God so loved the world that He gave me one of His sons."              a. Acee

2. "You bring out the unchristian in me."                                                  b. Al

3. "Wala nang traffic, pwede na akong mag move on."                               c. Dianne

4. "Ang buhay parang gulong, minsan flat."                                              d. Ena

5. "You make me want to be like my old self."                                          e. Estela

6. "Sana dumating na si Jesus para wala nang board exam."                                f. Joshua G.

7. "Ang daming nagkaka-crush sakin."                                                     g. LA

8. "Ikaw lang sa mga 'babae' ko ang tanging inuuwian ko."                         h. Roy

9. "Bakit hindi ako mahilig sa guwapo? Crush ko ngayon, pangit!"              i. Terryl

10. "Tandaan mo, ang non-christian pwede pang maging christian,               j. TJ

        pero ang pangit, di na magiging gwapo!"

 “Gossip is a person who habitually reveals personal or sensational facts about others" ( Webster )  --->Mag once a month ka na lang. maybe that's safe enough...

 

 

"Besides, they get into the habit of being idle and going about from house to house. And not only do they become idlers, but also gossips and busybodies, saying things they ought not to.”   (1 Timothy 5:13)  --->If you find yourself in the habit of gossiping, perhaps it’s time for you to keep your self busy with the more important things. Mag cross stitch ka. tapos pa-frame mo. ibenta mo. may kita ka pa!

 

 

“A gossip betrays a confidence, but a trustworthy man keeps a secret”.  (Proverbs 11:13) --->Kung mambe-betray ka, humalik ka na lang parang Hudas. atleast hindi ka chismosa/chismoso, nakahalik ka pa! di ba?

 

  

“When words are many, sin is not absent, but he who holds his tongue is wise.” (Proverbs 10:19)  --->Play safe, speak less. Magpa-braces ka, or stop taking your FernC muna para magka singaw ka ng marami sa gilagid. tapos mag gargle ng sukang mas sili. the best!

 

 

A gossip betrays a confidence; so avoid a man who talks too much.  (Proverbs 20:19)   --->Naku, iiwasan ko na si *toooooot*... pag nabasa to ng mga pipol, mawawalan na siya ng friend, kawawa naman. =(

 

 

Joking aside, if we're not careful, the enemy can use our seemingly innocent chats and turn them into something else. Let's all be careful. You don't wanna be used by the enemy to hurt others, do you? ---> “Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, looking for someone to devour.”  (1 Peter 5:8 )

 

 

P.S.

Alam niyo ba? si ______. Lalake pala! ahahaha!

I'm not sure kung maniniwala ako sa test na ito. But it's fun! read on...

 

Facts Curator

Your IQ Score is: 135

Like a meticulous collector, you've fed your brain a unique set of facts and figures over the years. Words, numbers, you've got it all. That's what makes you a Facts Curator.

Whether or not you intend to absorb every piece of information that comes your way, your mind has certain steel-trap qualities to it. You are a knowledge sponge. You have almost enough words in your head to fill a dictionary, and you're equally adept when it comes to manipulating numbers. You can also detect important patterns in number sequences, and probably remember the mnemonic devices you were taught in grade school. You may feel comfortable in classroom settings where absorbing details is critical. You're also able to learn from example and piece together all the little facts in life to get to the big picture. That's why you never stop accumulating information as you walk through life.

Your strengths lie in both the verbal and math realms — placing you in the same arena as someone like Bill Gates. Gates has the ability to not only store and retrieve an especially large amount of specialized data, but to translate and present that information to the population at large. His entire empire is based on this unique talent. And to think — your brain works in this same way! When it comes right down to it, you and other Facts Curators can ride a wave of information to live a truly enriched life.

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Test scores are estimates of the attribute measured by the test. The accuracy of test scores depends on numerous factors, such as the following:

         • Feelings about being tested
         • Familiarity with standard English
         • Cultural differences
         • Conditions of the testing setting
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Standard Score           Percentile                   Descriptor

131 and above            98 and above              Very Superior

121 to 130                   92 to 98                       Superior

111 to 120                   77 to 91                       High Average

90 to 110                     25 to 75                       Average

80 to 89                       9 to 23                         Low Average

70 to 79                       2 to 8                           Below Average

69 and below               2 and below                 Well Below Average

When test scores are placed on common scale, or standardized, direct comparisons can be made among them.

For Standard Scores the average is 100, with 90 to 110 often considered the average range.

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While packing her things, i couldn’t help but wet her stuff with my tears. I knew things were going to change once she's gone. No more someone to worry about when i need to be out of the house for a few days, no more waking up early in the morning just to feed her, no more cleaning her poopoo, no more getting mad when she eats MY food, no more sharing of bed, no more licking at my face when she wants to. A relief indeed, but then again this would mean no more Lucky.

 

 

She licked my hand when i put her in her cage. She got me reminiscing the days I spent with her alone in my house. I remember her keeping me company watching my DVD series until early in the morning. Of course she doesn’t react, she only stares at me whenever i laugh at Dr. Grey, cry with the lovers in Harvard, or get hysterical while the cheerleader breaks all her bones from falling off the building. And as for my movies, I’ve never heard her complain watching Timon, or Shrek, or even Superman for the nth time. All she would demand of me is to take a tiny bite of my midnight snack.

 

 

And there were those days when i felt so alone. I’m teary-eyed now, remembering the days when all i had was her. She’d listen to me ranting and complaining about the unfairness of life and she won’t judge the way i feel. She’d listen to me talking to God about my problems and frustrations and she’d act as though she understands me. She would then climb up my lap and would never say a word. Her presence alone comforts me as she sits silently at my lap. She won't mind getting wet with my tears as long as she gets half of my bed for that night in exchange, and i won't mind either.

 

 

Tonight, as i write this blog, there’s no Lucky disturbing, no Lucky walking across my monitor, no Lucky stepping on my keyboard, no Lucky typing alien words, no Lucky licking at my leg. There’s just no Lucky. I know it’s for everybody’s best (including Weng’s and Lucky’s) that we gave her away, but i miss her just the same.

 

 

To Kara and her family, i know you’ll take good care of her. She loves Lucky Me pancit canton, but just give her up to two noodles. That’s all she’s allowed to take.

 

 

To my baby Lucky, i hope to see you in December...

I don't get the same results every time i take this test. This is my third time to be curious about the gifts God has given me, and again, the gifts have been jumbled. Except of course for Music which has always been indisputably first in the list in all three times. Here's the the latest results:

         Music – 25

         Encouragement – 23

         Leadership – 23

         Pastoring – 21

         Discernment – 21

         Exhortation – 19

         Helps – 17

         Teaching – 17

         Administration – 17

         Prophecy – 15

         Wisdom – 15

         Apostle - 14

             Faith - 13

           Mercy - 12

           Knowledge - 11

           Miracles - 10

         The other gifts all below 10 points,

         especially Celibacy!

 

They say the order changes depending on situations you're always exposed to. Like for example, when i took this test before, administration was way down there. I guess there wasn't much opportunity for me to become administrative. But since my job now requires it, the admin in me is starting to be honed.

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     Nung bata ako, sinubukan akong turuan magbike ng ate ko, mga kuya ko at mga pinsan ko. Isama mo na rin pati mga kapitbahay ko. Unfortunately, unsuccessful lahat. Yes, hindi parin ako marunong mag bike. Thinking about it, bakit nga ba hindi ako natuto?
    

     1. May trauma ako sa pagbagsak. Five years old lang ako nung tinulak ako ng kalaro ko mula sa isang medyo mataas na platform. Pagbagsak ko, nagulat nalang ako kasi lahat ng mga kapitbahay, nagsisigawan. Maya-maya, nakita ko bali na ang right arm ko. Ouch!  Kaya mula noon, sobrang takot akong nahuhulog, lalo na sa bike.
    

     2. Pikon ako. Sutil kasi ang mga kapatid ko. Tuwing natutumba ako, sabay-sabay silang lahat tatawa. Ako naman, walk-out queen, bata palang. Ibabagsak ko ang bike na mas malaki pa sa akin, sabay padabog na tatakbo sa bahay at magkukulong na sa kwarto buong hapon. 
    

     3. Sour graping. Nung medyo tumanda na ako, nung lahat na ng bata sa paligid kahit mas bata pa sa akin eh marunong na magbike, ako naman ayaw ipakita na hindi ako marunong. Sasabihin ko nalng, "Okay lang, mas masaya naman ang agawan base kesa magbike". Pero wala naman ako kasama mag-agawan base kasi lahat sila nagbike na sa kabilang barangay.
    

     4. Tamad ako. Ako ang pinaka bata sa magpipinsan. Kaya lahat sila laging nag-ooffer na isakay nalang ako sa likod. Ako naman, sakay agad. Sa isip ko, ba't pa ako mapapaka-pagod magpedal kung pwede naman akong umangkas nalang?  
    

     5. Ngayong matanda na ako, shy na akong ipakita sa ibang tao na ngayon palang ako natututo magbike. Kakahiya! Tingnan niyo yang picture. Bike yan ng Inaanak kong 7 years old. May training wheels pa sa likod. O diba ang sagwa tingnan? hahahaha!
    

     Dahil sa mga palusot kong ito, hanggang ngayon olats parin ako. Hindi ko tuloy mapagbigyan ang mga friends kong nagyayaya sa Eco Park or sa Circle man lang. Haaaay...
     

     Panawagan, kung sino man ang may tiyagang magturo ng bike, text niyo ko. Turuan niyo yung inaanak ko.

Summer - it is laden with blossoms that smells so sweet and looks so beautiful, it is the most graceful thing I shall ever see.

I believe i'm now in summer! yahoo!!! i survived the pains of spring, now everything is blooming around me. everything i surrendered, they were all worth what i'm receiving from God now.

I'm in this season where God is truly blessing all the works of my hand. I feel like I'm just His favorite daughter at this time because He has been answering all of my long-time prayers. Not just that, even my trivial and petty wishes like going to the zoo, have been given instant answers! astig, sana laging summer sa buhay ko!

Family-- I've been having great bonding times with my mom, my older brother Weng, my cousin Bona, and i'm starting to penetrate the walls of my other cousin Brenda. Hope things will get better this Christmas vacation when i go home and spend time with my dad.

Acads-- High grades, candidate for full scholarship, always (walang mintis) teacher's favorite (hehehe, my charms), and i'm having so fun in school.

Friendships -- In the little time i've spent with the friends God has brought to my life, i feel like i have grown three times my regular pace. Anna K, Anna C, Dwyght, Lila, and Dianne are such a blessing.They are the people God sent to help me go through everything I've been through. I love them, i treasure them, i thank god for them, my covenant sisters.

Ministry -- I'm just having so much fun serving in the worship team. Titles are not important, I just love what i do for the team where i belong. =) And I'm about to start my own outreach group in school. astig!

What's more? Wounds from the past are almost completely healed, and God's grace has always been sufficient whenever i face the source of my wound. Now I'm healing and i'm continually recovering.

My walk with God -- It has never been this great. Like what Anna K said, my life is a balance of being who i really am and being spiritual. I'm not religious, i'm not spooky spiritual, i'm just biblical.

Hallelujah for God's faithfulness to see me through the spring. He really is true to His word. Everything He has promised me has now come to pass. Everything else may fade, but His words will remain.

 I know autumn is about to come... But until then, I will keep enjoying summer. =)

A name tells so much about a person. Here, take a look at what my name means.

Ena means...

Bright and Shining, Passionate and Fiery - Celtic

Glowing, Red Hot, Raging - a native Hawaiian language

Graceful and Ardent or that warm feeling expressed in zealous support or activity - Irish

Fire and Praise - Globe Communications

Water - from an old Australian aborigine language

Nobility also Little - Greek

Dancer also All Around - Native American

Tongue - Indo-Aryan

Opening in the Cloud - Pukui (another native Hawaiian language)

One – Slovenian

 

And here's what one of my friends sent me before. I think she visited this website that gives specific meanings to names.

 

As Ena you are rather serious-minded, responsible, and stable. You have the gift of tact and diplomacy, and possess a charming, easy-going nature which endears you to others. You have a serious desire to understand the heart and mind of everyone, and could be very effective in a career or in volunteer work where you are handling people and serving in a humanitarian way. This name also gives you a love of home and family, and as a parent you would likely be fair and understanding. You remember the thoughtful little expressions of affection and appreciation that mean so much to others, and you have the ability to create a warm and loving environment. However, you tend to put things off and avoid facing issues because of a lack of confidence and uncertainty. You often need encouragement from someone before you can come to a decision. This name creates a generally well-balanced and healthy nature, but any weakness in the health would cause problems in the fluid functions, such as kidney or bladder trouble, overweight, or swelling of the legs and ankles. 

 

Here's a funny translation I found about my name.

Wife and Soul - Old English --> Hahahaha!!! Pwede!!!!

 

How about this...

 

Zodiac Sign for Capricorn - India --> if i ever believed in zodiac, my sign would be Capricorn as i was born on January 4, 1982. Cooool!!!!

 

I just wanna thank my mom for naming me ENA. No other name will best fit me. I'd like to think the meaning of my name is exactly what God designed me to be, and plans me to become.

 

How about you, what does your name mean?

 

I just finished reading Robert Fulghum’s “All I Really Need to Know I Learned in Kindergarten”. I read it in between classes. I love it, I enjoyed it, I’ll read it again. I laughed while reading it and there were times when I got teary-eyed, I had to discreetly wipe my tears in front of friends while on lunch break. Haha!

 

Anyway, this book brought me to deep thinking about life and about myself. Here’s one of those things that made me think. He and his wife had a conversation where they talked about what each other would want in life. One of Robert’s answers was that he would like “…to be able to speak 10 foreign languages well enough to get the humor of another culture”. Reading along, I thought of my own answers, of what I want in life. Well at least other than the normal answers, here’s what I randomly thought of…

 

I would like to get drunk with my husband in the future. Get drunk, and laugh our hearts out! My close friends know about this wild dream of mine.

 

I would like to watch Beethoven play his 9^th Symphony. I will be crying a river if I do, that’s for sure.

 

I would like to experience hibernation like some animals do during winter. Sleeping is now becoming a luxury for me with my busy life… (naks, busy daw!) think about it, sleeping for months? No work, no play. Good as dead for months!

 

I would like to bathe in milk, then in perfume just like the queens did in the ancient times. Di kaya ako dudumugin ng langaw after?

 

I would like to have the courage of the APO people who participate in the yearly Oblation Run in UP. Wait, don’t get me wrong, I will NEVER run around campus naked, even if I had the courage to do so. I just admire their courage to express their idealism in extreme ways. That’s all.

 

So far, these are what I want. There are more, of course. But I don’t have the luxury of time to write them all down here. Maybe instead of hibernating, I’ll take that time to write down all I want in life. It will take me months, I suppose…

 

                                              

 

Oh yes, before I forget. Read the book. It’s worth three to four hours of your time. Yes, you can read the entire book in 3 hours, that’s how good it is. Very well written. It’s also worth reading it again and again. It will make you think about your life too…

To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven...

Last January, God told me i shall enter a new season of my life this year. He calls it Spring, a season of new beginnings, a season of new hope. I was so excited then, knowing breakthroughs are on my way. My prayer times were always full of thanksgiving and faith for the great things up ahead for me. I always looked forward to meeting with God, to talk to Him and ask Him about His promises. Until He started to show me the other side which i've always ignored... The giving up of things and people.

I know Spring is a wonderful start, but i'm learning that it's not really that easy. I knew from the start that it meant moving on and that i had to give up things. so to resign from work was not the issue. But to leave behind treasured officemates and former boss? That was for me the real deal. I resigned three weeks ago, yet still there are times when i feel terrible because i miss the Breakfast at Hepa Club. The people i got so used to seeing everyday now seem so far. These are the people i laughed with, faught with and shared my life with. I miss them a lot, i sure do... It's terrible.

Well, painful as it already is, God did not stop with that. My real Kada in church also had to go, and this is far much harder for me. For more than four years, these people have been my closest friends. They've seen me in my ups and downs, in my best and in my worst, truly my covenant friends. But they too had to go. I couldn't see the logic behind it, but It took an ate Lila to open my eyes to realize what i couldn't see, or should i say "chose" not to see before.

Giving up my friends doesn't mean putting an end to the relationships. it only means giving room for everyone to grow further in the destiny God has meant for our lives. They're still my friends but their position in my priority list is no longer as high as they used to be.

God knows how many buckets of tears i have cried because of this Spring He has promised. Sometimes i ask, is it really worth it? Giving up my relationships for something i still haven't seen? the answer is yes. it is all worth it. I remember the movie The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe. Entering spring wasn't easy. But the reward of freedom for Narnia was definitely worth all the troubles the four siblings went through.

As for me, No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for me in Spring. This promise has given me the strength to do what i have to do. I'm setting my eyes on the prize as i go on this giving up and moving on process. Thank God, His grace is sufficient.

"There is so much ahead of you, Ena", God's word through Lila, the promise i'm holding on to.

The Five Love Languages 

My primary love languages are probably     
Physical Touch and Words of Affirmation.

Complete set of results

Physical Touch:		9
Words of Affirmation:		9
Quality Time:		8
Receiving Gifts:		3
Acts of Service:		1

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